It is well with my soul

                    Emily riding Merlin

Yesterday, as I was responding to a post about the lack of services for adults with autism, the sense of frustration, fear, desperation and helplessness from other parents of kids on the spectrum hit me hard. Most times we are able to make light of such situations in an attempt to lessen our stress. But the worry is always there. The ever present fear of the future is overwhelming. 

We read articles about the struggles other parents are facing when their child becomes an adult. We block it out. We skim the surface. Knowing the inevitable is coming yet not having the knowledge, strength, courage and determination to do anything about it. Knowing the work that must be done and feeling an incredible amount of guilt we aren't doing more. 

"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid". 

As I was reading comments from other parents yesterday, John 14:27 immediately came to mind along with my favorite hymn.

"When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll; Whatever my lot, Thou hast taught me to say, It is well, it is well with my soul." 

This morning peace found me in the form of a rare 8 minutes of silence in the car instead of repeated questions. It found me watching my girl happy and at peace within herself riding a horse. Indeed it is well with my soul. 

Eight minutes of silence playing Luke's iPad